Are You there God?

My world falling apart.
Are You there Lord?
Do You care?
do You even remember me?

I know I'm not a good child for You.
I don't pray a lot, fast a lot nor depend on You.
I did a lot of sins.

But I've been told that God still love me no matter what. Is that true?
If its true, where are You now? Why I feel so forgotten by You?

I've been told that You won't forsake me in my weakness. But You just forsake my in all my weaknessess, at the same time.
What it does means God?

I don't understand. Are there? Do you love me? Why You do this to me?
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